Disappointment is a funny thing.

I wasn’t sure when I got up this morning whether I was going to ride my bike or walk to the train. I hate to admit it but I don’t always like doing a riding commute. Walking to the train is just so simple, and fairly calm and stress-free. If I want to ride I usually shower the night before so as to start clean, which I didn’t do last night, and I normally don’t ride on Pen Committee meeting days anyway because I don’t like to ride home from them through Redwood City.

On the other hand, I am trying to build up a proper base for starting training for W2W, and that means riding pretty much every day, and really, why not ride?

So I was debating my options this morning. I got up early enough to have enough time to decide. And I had decided to ride, got all dressed and put on sunscreen, and then it turned out my back tire was flat. So I had to decide if I would change the tube, or if I would use another bike (still requires refilling the tires at least, also there’s no seat on the old commuter right now, I would miss the train I wanted, etc), or if I would just go take a shower and walk to the later train.

But even though I kind of started out not wanting to ride, I was disappointed that I didn’t get to do it. It’s funny how that works. And it is a reminder that doing the W2W training is going to take a serious commitment and so far I am not really demonstrating that commitment. I recently decided to order a RoadID since I am going to be riding more, and they say that if you have extra space you can put a slogan or something on there. I don’t have allergies or medical conditions so I did have some space. I decided to put “100% commitment”. It came from another phrase I use in a different context, but it seems appropriate to me. I think I will need the reminder when it is windy or early or hot or I just don’t feel like riding that I decided to do this and I am committed, and that it will mean giving up some things to get what I really want. It means checking my tires and everything the night before so I am always ready. It means going to sleep and getting up earlier and not having so many lazy evenings. It means being committed even when there is nothing and no one to hold me to it except myself.

By the way, if you are interested in a RoadID, they sent me a Tell a Friend coupon for $1 off. $1 isn’t much but anyway, if you want it, comment and I’ll send it to you. It can be used by up to 20 people! I got the purple wrist one.